A Lost Girls Book of Poetry Read online

 

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  Madison Hodge

  Copyright Madison Hodge 2013

  Blue Eyes

       Eyes so blue they pierce through you.

  So warm they melt your heart

  He says "what could be more beautiful then you?"

  He sees me

  Eyes that match the blue of the sky on a perfect day.

  His looking warms me like the sun on my skin.

  His warm breath heats my cheek.

  He says "I love you."

  I meet those blue eyes with my own and smile.

  "I love you too, Always..     Eyes so blue they pierce through you.

  So warm they melt your heart

  He says "what could be more beautiful then you?"

  He sees me

  Eyes that match the blue of the sky on a perfect day.

  His looking warms me like the sun on my skin.

  His warm breath heats my cheek.

  He says "I love you."

  I meet those blue eyes with my own and smile.

  "I love you too, Always..

  Goosebumps

  Goosebumps run up and down my body,

  like mice scurrying back and forth ,

  up an down the clock.

  I shake my leg with nervousness ,

  or is it impatience.

  I'm not cold...

  then why?

  He walks into the room.

  Him.....

  It's him who causes this

  Him with blue eyes that dance like treasure lost in the blue green sea,

  Him with the smile that makes my heart melt.

  Him with the angelic laughter that sprinkles down from the heavens to grace my ears.

  I smile silently hiding my reaction.

  It was always him.

  It will always be him.

  Goosebumps wrack my body..

  His presence

  Eyes burn into me,

  I feel them on me

  I don't know where from

  Goosebumps cover my body

  I feel a presence...

  Next to me....

  Behind me.....

  All around me.....

  I feel hot breath on the back if my neck.

  I spin around....

  No one is there....

  "Where are you?" I whisper

  Nothing but silence answers me.

  I feel breath on my ear

  He whispers "I love you, bia "

  I fall on my knees crying

  "Why'd you leave me?"

  Feeling...

  So cold.....

  So alone....

  So helpless

  I feel his presence again

  "Don't be sad I'm still here" he whispers.

  I feel him touch my heart.

  "I love you" I cry

  I feel his presence leave as I said

  " I always will."

  My Mask

  I walk around school and home lauging and smiling.

  Wearing the mask I've worn the last couple of years.

  No one see's past it.

  At night when all are sleeping,

  I'm weeping and sobbing for the life and family i want,

  Before anyone can see the mask slip,

  I hide behine a book.

  waiting,

  and watching for my sweet escape

  I wait and wait,

  but the time has not yet come.

  Tomorrow I'll wait again.

  Confidence

  My heart races as i walk to the front,

  All of there eyes watch me as i walk,

  I stare out into my audience searching for warmth,

  and love,

  Eyes lock

  I can feel strengh filling me

  I open my mouth and sing

  To soon it is over

  I run off stage to find him there

  smiling at me,

  His gaze and smile full of love

  I run into his arms feeling strength,

  His strength,

  wrap around me

  So this is love

   

  A true love he is...

  A smile that warms me ,

  in the cold night air.

  eyes that light up the dark night sky,

  A True Love he is....

  But is he mine?

  He sits with a girl across

  the room,

  They laugh, They smile , They talk,

  His laugh makes me smile,

  His smile makes me happy,

  The joy in his eyes makes my heart a flutter.

  A true love he is...

  But is he mine?

  I have feelings for him ,

   But is it love?

  I love his smile,

  His laugh,

  His eyes,

  And the joy i feel at seeing him happy.

  True love i feel...

  But is he truly mine?

   

  In love forever

  The world around me is dull,colorless, boring.

  Only until he walks into the room.

  He brings color,sunlight,warmth , and most of all

  LOVE...

  The love we have for eachother,

  Is like a blanket around us.

  He smiles at me

  He lights up my world with just the smallest

  smile,

  look,

  and laugh

  to be this happy and in love forever

   

   

  She doesn’t listen

  They talk but, she doesnt listen.

  Her thoughts of him are light and fleeting

  Replacing her thoughts with memories ,

  Replacing her memories with reality.

  She has never been more happy,

  He smiles at her, she smiles at him

  they are oblivious to the world aorund them.

  The mean girls talk loudly and whisper quietly

  Always talking about her

  She doesnt hear

  He leaves...

  she crys,they talk no more

  She crys for days months and years

  they finally know how much she loved him.

  How much she didnt care of they talked

  The Girl

  The girl is sitting behind the couch

  Clutching her knees to her chest

  the door was locked

  but he still got in

  he hurt her

  kept her from getting away

  but he left behind traces,

  bruises,and scratches...

  Finally having the courage to stand

  she looked around,

  her mother was lying on the floor,

  dead...

  the girl fell to her knees crying...

  crying for her mother,

  crying for herself,

  crying for him,

  Knowing he is lost and she is next

  When he came the next night,

  she goes to him willingly

  accepting her death,

  her hurt her

  first beating her down

  she was almost unconcious

  when she whispered

  "please kill me.., i accept my death

  the man looked down at his daughter

  she had one tear trickling down her cheek

  sparkling in the moonlight

   

   

   

   

   

   

  The Bully

  The girl looked at the bully

  "Why do you have to beat me down?"

/>   "Does it make you feel better about yourself ?"

  "You know I'm killing myself tonight because of you."

  The girl kept talking slowly , while the bully stood still dumbfounded

  "you do know you have beaten me so far down i dont have the

  courage to get back up again for fear tyou will beat me down again."

  "I dont even have the courage to curse you out like i want to or even snitch on you"

  Stepping closer to the bully the girl pulled a knife.

  "the funny thing is that i have the courage to take my own life..."

  "to kill myself in front of you."

  Pulling out a piece of paper the girl layed it at the bullys feet.

  Standing back up and holding the knife to her heart,

  the girl looked at the bully who was still clueless,

  "tell them im sorry"

  The girl plunged the knife in...

  falling to her knees sobbing.

  "im sorry, I'm sorry."

  Understanding dawned on the bully

  she fell to the ground gasping

  a teacher walked by

  she saw the two girls on the ground

  both faces tear streaked..

  sorry on there lips.

   

   

  Spring

  The sun is bright and shining smiling down on us

  It is laughing

  Dancing and rejoicing

  It is here

  Everything is changing

  The trees are growing

  The kids are playing

  Flowers newly born sparkle with dew drops

  Yes it is here

  Bright green leaves are breathing

  The cool air is receding

  Yes...

  Spring is finally here

  Fall

  The sun is leaving

  Cold air is coming

  Mountain air is cleansing

  It is here

  Lead colors changing

  Bright reds

  Gorgeous oranges

  Majestic browns

  Birds migrate south

  Yes it is here

  It comes like a heat wave

  Claiming the breath of anyone who dares to look

  Fall is finally here

  Scars

  I sit here tracing my scars

  scars that will never fade

  Reminding me of my fearful past

  Striking my memories everytime I look at them.

  My heart says i have to face the past

  But my head says run away

  How can i run away...

  When all these scars remind me of all the bad thinhs have happened

  I look down at my scars again

  It time...

  To go back and face my past.

  So i can look the to thr future and not look back...

  I can get on with my life and its all because i have left behind...

  Scars...

  Beloved

  I am in the forest.

  It is night.

  i am at the hunting grounds.

  Scrounging around for food .

  I have lost my mate.

  I am lost...

  I dont know what to do...

  where to go..

  We have benn kicked out of the pack.

  To start our own...

  But they hunted us and down and killed her...

  My beloved...

  What am i to do?

  When my beloved is gone...

  I am lost to the workd because she is gone...

  All gone...

  My Beloved...

   

  Finally Safe

  He layed in bed.

  Watching black shapes dance across his ceiling.

  Then he heard it...

  She was crying and begging for him to stop...

  He listened harder "smack"...

  "thump"...

  Silence...

  He knew he had hit hurt and he was next...

  The door slid open slowly silently.

  He closed his eyes waiting for the onslaught.

  He waited and waited...

  Then her arms were around him

  gathering him to her close

  Rocking him back and forth she whispered "were finally safe...'

   

   

  My Sun

  Silence surrounds me

  Closing in on me

  I'm suffocating

  I hear a vibration !

  I see his name on the screen

  My heart collapses

  I whimper

  I look at the mirror in front of me

  And ask myself why?

  Why do you look at me?

  Why?

  Why?

  Why!?

  Why is just the question not an answer

  I hear the vibration again

  My walls crumble I know it's him

  I answer...

  I see a tear drop hit my phone

  I curl up in a ball

  I have my answer...

  I love him....

  He's my laughter

  My happiness

  My comfort

  My sun

  My love...

  Gone

  Shes gone...

  I cant see her

  I cant hear her

  I cant be near her...

  But shes near me

  Everywhere...

  In my heart

  In my mind

  She was my best friend...

  i miss her...

  It was time for her to leave...

  He wanted her home.

  But I wanted her here with me

  Today I Wondered...

  The moments of life,the trials of love. Without all i dream a common dream. Today i wondered if the sky is really blue. the sun and moon are both alike. As is the love between a brother and a sister , a man and his wife. A clean and pure flower, so white and carefree of loves lies and treacherous ways. She of lucid eyes ,she of perilous ways. Love and women seem alike. Alight enjoyed by the loving vines of souls meeting and joining as one.

  He’s not going to remember

  He's not going to remember...

  Dancing with me...

  Dancing with mom...

  He won't rememeber my grandma...

  He will slowly forget all of life...

  Day by day,year by year

  He slowly gets sicker...

  He slowly loses his memories...

  Sonner or Later he will die...

  Not remembering his daughters...

  His Granddaughters...

  His Great granddaughters...

  His wife...

  His life.

  Tears well up in my eyes as i think about him...

  drifting slowly away...

  away from everyone...

  Away from the life that he had...

  But i must be strong...

  i must remember...

  For him!